This is not what I expected, I thought it would be easier. But the way you changed me, was strong enough to make me think all day about you. I read, yesterday, a nice sentence, "don't live without the one you think all day about," somehow it made me think about you. Well, I already do it all day, but then I saw the real meaning of it. It sounds so ridiculous. I wouldn't let you go if I hadn't to.
It's not up to me, to make a choice, you did it.
You know, sometimes I breath really deep and I wish so hard as I can that you'd be mine. I find you in every single corner, I see you everywhere. But I can't change the story, not even on my dreams when I dream about you, it's always painful and never gets to the end, at least, an end.
The last thing I can say is: wait for me, I will share the air I breathe, I just don't want to lose you forever.
I remember the first time you said "Hi". I was shaking, I couldn't control my legs. I never heard you saying my name, but somehow you changed me. So say you stay and wait for me, please, please stay.
I remember you kindness, your beauty and your simplicity. I remember it all. I remember when you took my fears away, I believe that you would make me a different person, a better person. That's one of the reasons that I can't take my eyes off of you.
I'm feeling inspired, I wish I could say all this face-to-face, but do I really need to? I know you can see through me, I know that from the moment I met you and when your blue eyes looked at me.
All of this words couldn't be further from the truth. How did I get there? It makes me wish I've never been here.
Why don't you let me be free from you? If you don't want me, if I'm not the one you were looking for, then let me go back to my own way, without you.
I didn't want to give up. I've been looking to see you again, but I never find you. I've been waiting for your call that never came. And that's what I became after you left me, someone who looks everywhere hoping that's you.
I was born to tell you I love you, and I will do what I have to just to be whatever you were looking for. I swear you my dear, if I had to chose between breathing and loving you, I would use my final breath to scream loud how I love you.
Life seems to be unfair sometimes, why do you do this to me? The one who probably loves you the most? You make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe.
Days aren't that easy anymore, I wish I could fly, fly to protect you every day. I would like to be strong so that I didn't have to cry for you. But I should have known that this couldn't be truth, perfection is not an option.
I would tell you all my secrets, all the things none ever know. And you could tell me yours, I would make them become true.
Hold me on your arms, I want you to hold me. I will share everything I know. I like to sing in the shower, if you like I will sing to you. I like to go for a walk when I feel alone. I wish I could fly, maybe if we hold hands I can have that feeling. And I like to draw, and scream, and smile, help and love because that's what life is about. I like the moon, cats, sunshine, shadows.
And now tell me, tell me everything you never said, we can stay and talk for hours. I don't have anything to hide. Tell me all of your hopes, all of your dreams, I want to take you there. Tell me everything, every breath, I want you to know I'll be there, but only one request, I want you to take me with you, and I won't let you down.
I wish my life was this letter because a letter never die, I could write for years and years and never cry. I could say how I love you, explain you how perfect we are with each other. I could write our happy ending, and give you all you need because all I need is everything about you.
I don't want to be the only girl in your life, I just want to be the only one that in fact matters. I hope you understand how hard it is when I'm trying to express myself in another language. So, that means that I must really feel something strong enough to do it.
I don't think you know how beautiful you are, not only outside, but also your way, your acts, your kindness. I never thought I could meet the one I was looking for and yes, I was terrified to meet you, but if I could go back in time, I would do it again.
I don't want to remember how beautiful your smile is, how bright your eyes are, how sweet you can be and how perfect you act. It makes me want you. And you know I can't my darling. I know I have to get away, I know I'm not the best for you. And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for the way I love you.
I'm trying to understand that we will never hold hands. Walk somewhere and stay watching our shadows getting closer. I know, I know. I'm getting use to it. In a few days it will all go away. But my songs don't help, they scream at my ears beautiful lyrics. Amazing stories of love that never end. And it all makes me dream.
I guess you were right, I'm just too foolish for someone like you. And by the way, you should know that I hate this letter...
Because it was written for you.